I think my art works really well as a gif

It’s been a long time since I’ve been able to finish something, not that this piece is particularly detailed… I’ve been very busy, life has been weird. I’m painfully mentally exhausted.

Birdface

hi look at me not working on commissions. :I

Honestly I WAS working on a commission, until I found the lineart for this buried in my old college work. It was unfinished, so I completed the lineart, then ended up having a lot of fun with it.

inking in photoshop again reminded me why I stopped inking in photoshop.

cgtextures.

I forgot about these too! They’re tiny tiny linocuts of bugs on ridiculous tiny canvases. They’re seriously stupidly small.

I forgot this existed, and I don’t get why it wasn’t here already?

closeups of the “This Not A Book Of Birds” book thing that I made in college, I just found these files. These are my 3 favs, but they look worse than I remember haha.

A piece of a European hare man, by an incredibly awesome commissioner who gave me almost complete artistic freedom.

I dunno about this one.

I always thought it was kind of funny when people draw vent art, like, they’re ANGRY so they draw a picture of their character screaming/hurling rocks/punching walls/spinning and projectile vomiting/whatnot (whatever people want to do when they’re mad). My vent art almost never shows the emotion I’m feeling. Art IS my therapy, it IS the stress relief, so it seems strange for me to feel angry, and then DRAW something angry, because wtf is that doing? It’s making me DWELL on the anger, it’s almost making it worse because I’m thinking about the feeling and trying to make it physical with the drawing, when what I SHOULD be doing, is relieving myself. Dwelling on the feeling isn’t relief. Drawing something that I love drawing to calm myself down enough to tackle the issue is relief. So when I upload personal art, it’s almost ALWAYS vent art (honestly it’s mostly because I don’t make time to draw for myself between commissions and such, the only time I do is when I need a vent), and guess what? You’ll probably never know how I was feeling when I drew it. And that is COMPLETELY fine with me. I don’t like to be public about my life issues most of the time, I prooobably don’t want you to know that I’m feeling sad/regretful/angry/stressed/whatnot, unlike uh… basically everyone else I see on the internet. WHY? Are you looking for pity? Does telling everyone that you’re pissed make you feel better? Does uploading your character crying blood solve any of your issues? Maybe it does, I don’t know, but it sure doesn’t help me.

maybe im just weird.

I do the best personal work when I’m really really upset with myself/thinking about bad things/thinking about everything embarrassing I’ve ever done/thinking about regrets, then I cheer up because I drew something that I kinda like :D

sorta.

vent art that’s irrelevant to what I’m upset about (as always), have a really feminine man.

Just downloaded Paint Tool Sai, it’s sure fun for inking…… but then I went back to Photoshop. hahaa

Shirt designs as a small personal project.  I’d really love to get them printed someday.

I seriously forgot that I could draw for myself and not just for money for a little while there. Ugh